clean up

Motivation? Get everyone to work and school so I can be alone. Just get through that morning rush. Make sure everyone is fed, dressed appropriately for the weather, has whatever they need to meet the day— signed forms, lunch money, strategy to take into that big meeting. Making sure everyone is ready to meet the day is what I do and when they're all out on time, off to their buses and trains, then I can take a deep breath, the anxiety and pressure drops a bit. It's not that I can relax exactly, I'm not sure I ever relax— what would that feel like?