we continue on

I was confronted by a group of men, the way groups of men still like to confront women, nbs and femmes who are walking alone. It was just as menacing as it ever was— there are more of them than me, they are physically stronger. It feels like it's always been that way. That they can force their will on us, exploit, abuse, taking whatever they want. That familiar fear ran through me, but it evaporated quickly. It's not that they can't touch me now, I'm not bulletproof, but my own strength and virtue seems strong enough to transform them— it stopped them in their tracks.

They definitely came at me with hostility and cruelty, no denying that, but after years and lifetimes of practice at yielding, flowing with others' energy, perhaps something has finally shifted in the energetic field. Dynamics are different. Let them learn to flow with my energy, adapt to what I channel and offer which isn't about exploitation. What would that be like?

They didn't attack me this time, their energy seemed to melt, puddle. They were as confused by it as I was. They came at me licking their lips and grabbing their crotches, very aggressive, but by the time we met, their heads were bowed in respect, offering support— how can they help me, what can they do? Flowers are ok, jewelry is nice. I'm looking for this particular necklace. Cash and bitcoin deposits into my accounts are always welcome. Also directions, do you know where the bus stop is? They weren't offering me money or jewels, but they did get out of my way and point me in the direction of the nearest stop, so I call it a victory.