a good container

So much pressure in the head and throat. Weight pounding in, feels skull crushing in density. My throat nearly closed, head full of congestion. How I'm still breathing, I don't know. What passes for air here is thick to me, thick in my lungs, weighting me down. Breathing feels difficult, all of it feels painful. A stabbing in my throat, somehow stabbing and aching at once. My chest feels full of fluid as though waterlogged. Submerged for too long. The opposite of mummification, whatever that is. Too soaked, too wet, the skin whitening from too long in water. Dead skin ready to be sloughed off. Sitting up, getting up, moving might help. Doesn't help me breathe, but helps change perspective once I water my eyes enough to be able to blink.